{"id":2390,"date":"2010-09-22T15:00:20","date_gmt":"2010-09-22T19:00:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/lanternreview.com\/blog\/?p=2390"},"modified":"2010-09-22T14:21:15","modified_gmt":"2010-09-22T18:21:15","slug":"becoming-realer-a-writers-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.lanternreview.com\/blog\/2010\/09\/22\/becoming-realer-a-writers-life\/","title":{"rendered":"Becoming Realer: A Writer’s Life"},"content":{"rendered":"

“Becoming Realer: Identity, Craft and the MFA” is a column that explores issues of poetry, theory and writing<\/em> craft in relation to the personal experiences of Saint Mary\u2019s College of California Creative Writing MFA candidate and <\/em>LR staff writer, Kelsay Myers.<\/em><\/p>\n

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My MFA program began with a validation. We gathered in Galileo Hall for Orientation and the program director, Marilyn Abildskov, welcomed us to Saint Mary\u2019s College of California\u2019s Creative Writing program right off the bat <\/span> <\/span>by saying, \u201cThe MFA is the public declaration of the writer\u2019s life.” It was the first opportunity many of us had to see each other. I nodded, inspired. Looking around a room full of similarly inspired faces, faces imbued with similar curiosity and similar possibilities for living the writer\u2019s life I wondered, \u201cWhat does it mean to live a writer\u2019s life anyway? Who are these fellow students, fellow writers, who I\u2019ll be spending the next two years with? Who are they, and who am I?\u201d<\/p>\n

Questions of belonging and self-identity aren\u2019t new. It was those questions that led me to apply to MFA programs to begin with. My <\/span>personal statement ended <\/span> with a quote from Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick. In her memoir, A Dialogue on Love<\/em><\/a> <\/span>(Boston: Beacon Press, 1999), she writes: \u201cIf I can fit the pieces of this self back together at all, I don\u2019t want them to be the way they were. Not because I thought I could be better defended either: what I wanted was to be realer.\u201d I also want to be realer, I stated.<\/p>\n

As an undergraduate student at Kalamazoo College in Kalamazoo, Michigan I started out knowing that I would study philosophy, literature and poetry writing\u2014not <\/span>Asian studies. That wasn\u2019t my place. I was a Korean adoptee raised in a small Midwestern town where I could count the number of racial minorities on both hands. Cultural ties were shaky at best; resentful or embarrassing at worst, but my Korean face stood out on my college campus. It became the marker by which others defined me, and then, how I came to define myself. I went to Japan because I couldn\u2019t get to Korea. I found revolutionary Asian American Studies. I devoured Asian American poetry. I learned what it meant to be Asian in Middle America. <\/span>I realized that philosophy was not my place either, but I craved the self-knowledge involved in much of metaphysical and continental philosophy. By the time I left K, I wanted to know where my place was. Asian American studies? Literary theory? Creative writing? Some interdisciplinary approach to all three?<\/p>\n

By returning to that existential question\u2014who am I?\u2014I knew the answer. I am an Asian American woman writer, but beneath the politics of racial identity, beneath the yearning for self-expression and self-creation, is simply a desire to be seen and known. Is that living the writer’s life? Of course, fundamentally, living a writer\u2019s life is writing. I see this column as a step in the right direction. It’s a place for questions about literary<\/span> <\/span>writing forms<\/span><\/span>, craft and how all of it interacts with<\/span> my experiences at St. Mary\u2019s. Personally, I still hope both this column and my MFA program will help make me realer. Maybe that is living a writer’s life.\u00a0 <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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